| Current mood: | confused |
| Current music: | Bush "Glycerine" |
"Don't let the days go by.....Glycerine"
Okay, so not Mr. Posty lately but I guess it's okay, considering everything that is going on. First, Anya was left behind when we headed for Cleveland. Andrew said she died saving him. I just don't get. I can't be happy. I...I can't live without her. Will, Buffy, and everyone have been telling me that she will be back. That Willow will do the whole resurrection thing and she'll be back and everything will be okay, right? Wrong. I want her back, but I don't. Anya's dead. I don't want her coming back like Buffy did. After what she told us...living in hell because she got expelled from heaven? What if Anya is in heaven? What if she is having the time of her life? What if she doesn't want to be brought back? What if she is happy...
What if she is happy, without me?
And if things couldn't get more confusing, Dawn's relationship with me is getting fuzzier everyday. She is amazing...extraordinary but my feelings are still strong for Anya. And I'm asking myself if I should move on? If I should just let my heart fall back in love with Dawn...but then if Anya is going to be brought back my feelings will just get wish-washed around again. It's the biggest triangle I've been in. Dawn told me to follow my heart. To not choose what I think is right or wrong but to choose the person I love...and I can't. My head is blocking my vision and my heart is more confused now that it ever has been. I'm so lost.
I need answers. I need help. I need.....someone
Okay, I've posted now. Whew. Sorry it took so long...been a bit busy. This summer has more twist and turns then I expected it to. I'm going to make a different layout for my journal sometime (hopefully) this week so check it out if you want to. As usual you can IM me OOC at= SarahSU88 or IC at= XandieHarris. Hope to talk to you all soon!
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