Eliza Dushku (x_eliza_x) wrote, @ 2003-05-01 20:56:00

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Damn, The Past Two Wickedly Sweet Days
Thank Goodness It's Friday
April 25, 2003



Going To The Chapel And We're Gonna Get Marrrried!

An old friend of mine got married, and J. escorted me to the weddin'. It was the weddin' of my friends Jessie and Dean. Jessie was so beautiful in her dress, and Dean was so handsome in his tux. The ceremony was just so beautiful that I'll admit I did have a tear here and there. I was the one that introduced the two since they were both my friends. Those two were just inseparable and didn't realize they had feeling for each other till like some time ago. so the two of them getting' married was such a blessin'.

At the reception those two were just too sweet it was so cute. J. and I sat down at one of the tables for the reception when we got there, I gave him the background on Jessie and Dean, and at one point I was called up to the stage to sing to the bride and groom. I got up from my seat and made my way to the stage. At the stage I took the mic. and said "I'm standing here today to congratulate my two friends, Jessie and Dean. They've been friends, lovers, and now husband and wife. This song is dedicated to them and to my best friend J."With that J. smile at me from his seat and, I began to sing.




BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me



When the song finished everyone was clapping loudly, then I walk back to the table where J. was waiting for me. He watched me as I came back to the table and said "Girl, you kicked ass! That was great! " -laughs- I thanked him, and that's when the food came. We began to eat to the dinner that was prepared for us, and J. was just enjoyin' his meal and drowning the rest of his drink. At one point he then went all Dr. Seuss on me and said "Yes.Pig. I am." I then asked him ' is someone getting' all Dr.Seuss on me?" His reply, "like food, I do." -lightly laughs- After that a person made an announcement at the mic. that the bride and groom were going to have their dance. We both look at the married couple dancing and then J. looked at me just watchin' and studying' me quietly. As I watched the married couple I mentioned to J. that they've been best friends for years, and I was the one who introduced them. With that he said, "they fell in love?" I told him that's what happened. J. was curious so he asked, "when did they find out they wanted to be more than friends?" I stated, 'this past year of being friends." With my response he became lost in thought. I asked him what he was thinkin' and, J. then looked back at the couple and said "nothing." With that I asked him if he wanted to dance, so we made our way to the dance floor.



Someday
when I'm awfully low
when the world is cold
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
and the way you look tonight!

Oh
but you're lovely
with your smile so warm and your cheeks so soft
there is nothing for me but to love you
just the way you look tonight!

With each word your tenderness grows
tearing my fear apart
and that laugh that wrinkles your nose
touches my foolish heart!

Lovely
never, never change
keep that breathless charm
won't you please arrange it
'cause I love you
just the way you look tonight!

Just the way you look
tonight!



With that song came this song:




ONLY ONE FOR ME

la la la la la la la
la la
la la la la la la
la la la la la la la
la la
la la la la la la

You say you've seen too many things,
that turn out to be too good to be true.
Against your better judgment, opened up your heart,
'til you found the joke was on you.

Looking out on the rest of our lives,
If we're gonna be together or apart
About the only way I know how to come,
is right straight from my heart.

I want you now,
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around,
but now I've found
that you're the only one for me.

Say you'll never fall again
You won't subject yourself to such pain
If you give me half a chance I will
Never leave you standing out in the rain
But if you think that I could look you in your face and lie right
through my teeth
then turn around and walk away
Cross my heart, girl I care for you and when I look into your eyes i must say...

I need you now
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around
but now I've found
that you're the only one for me
I need you so
I can't let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
cause you're the only one for me

la la la la la la la
la la
la la la la la la
la la la la la la la
la la
la la la la la la

I want you now
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around
but now I've found
that you're the only one for me
I need you so
I can't let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
cause you're the only one for me


I put my arms lightly on his neck while he slipped his arms lightly on my waist. I put my head on his chest and we began to sway in time to the song. While we were dancin' I noticed that he would glance at the bride and the groom then at me. I glanced at Jessie and Dean and J. asked, "you think you'll ever get married E?" I answered "I figured someday I would." J. then randomly asked "how long we've been friends.?" We've been friend for a few years" I replied to him. I look up at J. and asked 'can you picture yourself like them?" I was referrin' to Jessie and Dean. J. said 'love like that?" I noded and said "yeah." J. response to that was "depends on the person." I then said 'I'm sure you'll find that person" and to that he softly said "I think I already have." I heard what he said, so I looked up at J. and said "you think you already have?" With that he looked away from me and didn't say anythin'. I asked ' so who's the lucky gal that got you all smitten?" From there he started to stutter "uhh..no..no one..I just..er..meant..uh." I quirked an eyebrow and asked him if he wanted to go for a walk on the balcony. He noded, so I pulled away lightly and took his hand leading him to the balcony.


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing and wishing you had?


When we got to the balcony I asked about the gal. J. then turned to me and said " She..she doesn't feel that way about me.. " I asked him "did you asked her?" then said "how could she not fall for you? " with a soft smile on my face I gazed at him. With that J. looked at me slowly and said "you tell me" from that point I told him that askin her can't hurt. I he then replied to me " ..what if she doesn't feel like that? There's friendship there, why would you want to ruin that? " With that I said "If you give her a reason to let her know that it'd be so worth it, and she'd probably change her mind" He then glanced down at me and asked if I knew who she was yet. I thought 'bout it for a sec. then J. glances away to not keep eye contact with me. I turned to him and said "come on J. be straight with me because if it is who I think it is I'm sure she feels the same way and is too afraid to admit it." He looks at me and softly says "I love you, I'm in love with you" I was taken back by what he said, so I replied 'I love you too." He looked at me, and trailed off while I noded my head lightly. I told him that all the time together made me realize it. From there J. asked "what now?" I smirked pulled him close and said "this" while I lightly pulled him close I gave him a soft kiss. Well what happened after that came the agreement that we were gonna date and take it slow.

The whole night was a shock to him as well as I. I started to fall for him with the time that we spent together and it made me realize what was in front of me this whole time. I've been burned twice and I thought I couldn't open my heart the same way again, but with J. it felt like opening my heart was all I wanted to do. I mean we've been through everythin' together from the joys and heartaches that come along with life and love. I couldn't think of anyone I rather have a relationship with than him.









Gotta Love Saturday
April 26, 2003

I had gone out and when I came back I saw J. on the couch watchin' some movie. He had a bowl of fresh popped popcorn on the livin' room table when I came in. I smiled and asked him what he was watchin' and he told he wasn't watchin' anythin'. I knew him to well to know that he was watchin' something. -smiles- As I made my way to the livin' room he went in front of the television to try to cover up the movie he'd been watchin'. I tiled my head to the left a little and saw my face on the screen wearing a bikini not to mention I heard a very familiar voice which was mine. I knew right away he'd been watchin' Bring It On I thought it was so cute of him to do that.

Anyways after having that talk 'bout him watchin' the movie J. decided that he wanted to go to the theater. As soon as he said that we began to head out the door to the nearest theater. On the way there, however J. sang the 'Oh Mickey" song because it was stuck in his head.

At the theater we decided to watch Phone booth and get some popcorn along with sodas. While we were pickin' the movie he started to be random. J. raised an eyebrow, looked at me, and said "your hair rocks..why is that? What shampoo do you use? Why doesn't my hair rock like that?" I looked at him and quirked an eyebrow and answered, " Herbal Essence" as he touched my hair lightly. He asked if he was freakin' out 'bout the whole hair thing, and I softly laughed with a slight nod. As we bought the tickets and headed to the movie room he has his arms around my shoulder while I placed my arms around his waist.

During the movie J. was getting' all smooth talker on me which was so cute. Well other than the smooth talkin' this guy in the theater was bein' such a major ass I swear he was so gonna get a beat down if J. hadn't convinced me to not kick is sorry ass. Anyways the whole incident made us want to go somewhere else. J. wanted to watch some movies back at the hotel, so we headed back there. As we got to the hotel we raced into the elevator and from there to the hotel door.

At the hotel room I set up the movie while J. played with his dog Wes. We both were on the couch watchin' the movie, and I could really tell he was into the movie everytime he saw a certain character named Missy. As we were on the couch he had his arm around my shoulder as I placed myself closer to him. While the movie went on he mentioned about how we'd never meet if it hadn't been for Joss, and with that he looked at me and said "I wouldn't even been able to do this" and he kissed me softly. From there we stayed close to each other and continued to watch the movie and fell asleep in each others arms.

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