Another night in time
I just got home...Justin took me to get chinese food and then we rode around. He can be such a sweetheart. I wish things weren't the way they are...what if this is my chance at happiness that I have waited for so long? It hurts, I don't know what to do, for my own sake I need to leave him alone completely untill this pain inside subsides, but I can't bring myself to do that. I don't want to loose him. Maybe in time it will be allowed but intill then ill just have to deal with wanting what I cant have.