|Current mood:|| exhausted|
|Current music:||Call It Love - Deuce|
My girlish notions attempted to pull rank on me
I just don't understand what's going on with me. For one thing, the Anita Blake novels are a very bad, extremely delicious habit I've picked up. I've forced myself to put them down for now. But still lingers, is this very real, and possibly normal feeling. Of all the times in my life so far, I've never needed another to be there for me. And don't get me wrong, not just any person but a man. And now that feeling of needing someone is so strong but so is the feeling of wanting to run away. I just want to get away from it. God, as wonderful as it would be to be in the arms of someone who wants and needs me as much as I need and want them...I just don't think I'd be able to handle it. And I don't know why...all I know is that I can't keep my eyes open anymore.