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Hello it's the daily update from the peanut factory up here in Canada
Well here is some of todays rantings...
Okay. Off to a fairly good start today although I didn't sleep worth a crap. Couldn't sleep until I altered my racing mind. I seemed like everythng was bothering me, brother Chris and mines relationship, the fact that he's so cold towards the rest of us. My sister Patty doesn't like me much, but she doesn't take the time to really get to know me; I figure it her loss. Both their loss. I know who I am and I finally decided that I don't need their approval of me in order to live. I others in my life that are loving people around me and satisfying relationships. Niece Nicole doesn't really seem to want to bother but then again she 21 going on 30. It's not about me right now it's about her but I have always tried to let her know that I love her unconditionally no matter what she feels about herself. I tell her I don't know what I'd do without her in my life. We often talk about how big of a bunch of freaks we have in our family. We all just love Megan and my hope for her is to have a long lasting loving relationship, happiness, and success in life despite the ignorance that preceeded in the family tree (Both sides) & her upbringing situation. I'm not going into that at this time.
See, I can just see how this is going to go. It's already 11:00 and I've accomplished quite a bit but havent really listed it yet. I found the paperwork BL wanted me to fill out so the best I'll do is a little mini essay for her. BL is a drug and alcohol support worker in the area here. Becauise this is a fairly small area, you have to travel to other towns for aything of a decent meeting I would think.
On my third tea, smoked a couple very small bowls of the wacky stuff, smoked three cigarettes, got dressed, talked to Jen on the phone. Agreed to go out with her for a bit into town for shopping. Listened to the first half of the first tape of Anthony Robbins "Personal Power" audio tapes.Just started a list of important aspects of what I'd like to but into my business plan. Gotta get my old old books out for some business stuff? or better yet, I should stop by the small business develpoment office and get some quick information.
{Remember some names of people, places, or things may or may not have been changed}
Okay so I had a pretty good day?.Kath bear stopped by today with an english toffee cappacino for me when she was finished at work today, but Jen was already here? waiting for me to finish readying myself. Bought myself some more second hand clothes. Trying to update my image a bit from strickly Levi's?lol
Shannon almost had a fit when she sawe me in kamo pants? but these have two big daisies, one on each leg?And.. I think I only paid 6 bucks for them from Mc Kays department store when they went out of business in the Sound just before I moved back to my hometown. Population last time I looked was 6500 and counting.. At least I think they still keep track ? whoever they are?lol I got this little greenish coverall type dress that is obviously for a child? but guess who had to have it? Me of course and I can actually wear it as a top.. I had it on earlier. I purchased pajama pants, black satin dress type pants, a really nice mod pair of jeans, a strangely mustard colored dress type pants, and about four tops/sweaters all for under $25 at the Second Hand Rose in Walkerton
Got Wendy some smokes at Jack Reids and attempted to exchange the pipe that Jon bought for me the other day? bu when I took another look at them either the one I wanted was gone or I was mistaken about the color. Turns out the one he bought for me was the best one out of all of them after all and bought Sam a pipe for christmas?..
Got a few grocery items while in town with hen then took the smokes out to Wendy place at Priebes old place on the Carsrue road. It's a really nice appartment over one of the sheds. Made a couple of exchanges and made a date for sitting and doing some crafts together some evening. I told Ruth and she said she'd love to do that with us so we set that up for Monday.
So it's 12:30 am and I just had four pieces of Sun-Maid Raisin Cinnominswirl with more cinnomin sugar to top it off? yes I said four pieces of toast. That in itself is a no no, not to mention what time it is?. One should never eat more than two pieces of bread a day and not before going to bed. I need to gain some muscle tone but I don't want to get fat either.
I've actually been trying to gain wait for about 8 months? but I try a litlle then I don't eat much again for a few days.. Then I'll eat pretty good for another couple ?etc, etc, etc.
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