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| Current music: | brand new - jude law and the semester abroad |
something worth happening
its not fair. its not fucking fair. how does this shit happen. i dont fucking get it. i broke up with maddy im sorta really happy with that decision because it just wasnt working out and if it didnt work all 7 times then it probably wont happen. lets face it its not working. but whats worse is now i like this girl carry white. but i know that wont happen i barely see her around anyways. and now heres the climax of the story, i got to see a friend i havent seen since 5th grade. stacy carigg... well anyways in like no time i feel connected and now i think i found love at first site. she just seems so amazing. its not fair. she probably doesnt give a shit about me and shes got this boyfriend who apparently is gonna marry her or some shit like that but he sounds like a total fuck tard. it sounds like he treats her like shit and he probably does. hes fuckin paranoid over her. and if she ever left him shed probably go to matt leffler. its not fuckin fair. i acted like a total ass around her joking around like i usually do. i just really wanted to maybe just show her the better side of me. i want to show her true love. its a very strange world when you end up falling in love with the girl that you were scared of and ran away from durring childhood. god shes so fuckin pretty. screw sex. its perfect just to hear her voice.... god whats wrong with me!!!!!! stop it stop it stop it!!!!!! i feel like im stuck in a dashboard confessional video. god dammit. i dont mean to be me. maybe i should hide myself from everything again, like i was durring 8th grade and freshmen year. god im going. this is making my head hurt
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