| Current mood: |  apathetic |
| Current music: | Millencolin-The Ballad |
I've devoted this day entirely to not thinking. I'm just doing things on automatic, reading, writing, listening, watching, baking. I just made biscuits and I finished Rash. That's an excellent book. Tamika and Opaque/Rik are my favorite characters. But I can't really think about or focus on anything today. Which is fine by me.
First I must thank Rachelle and above all Dani for making this weekend a hell of a lot of fun. It was lovely. Second, I must apologize to Dani for being weak and making yesterday....not very exciting. It wasn't what I was expecting and I think I let you down. Or something. I probably just shouldn't have come over. Though I'm glad we finally watched Thirteen, even if we didn't get around to Waking Life. Maybe we could watch it sometime this week before Friday. Thirteen was good, but too much of it was like us. Not the drugs or drinking or anything, certainly not the betrayal, but also sort of that. We're happy on a day-to-day basis, but it seems like I've let you down so many times since sevesnth and eighth grade. Things were so easy and simple then and now it's like I'm always doing something wrong. Sometimes I wish I was still that oblivious nerd that you used to know. I stopped caring about things and I feel like I've screwed something up for us. I don't know....I'm not sure what I'm feeling.
My brain hurts. Or myabe it's just my head and I should go down some pills to make things a little more cheerful.
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