|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||7 days oh 7 days of thunder|
Okay well haven't updated this in a long while....lets see. It's spring break now. I got a job at Fossil. It's pretty cool I really like my manager, Chris. I bought a new watch yesterday with my employee discount. I love watches. Anyway...Spring Break has been pretty bad. Probably the worst I have had. I'm just not happy anymore but what else is new, my whole year has been like this. I got rejected to Tufts and Brown, waitlisted to Colgate and Northeastern and accepted into Drew, Stevens and Bucknell. I signed up for the waitlist at Colgate and is thinking about Bucknell. I was suppose to drive to Lewisburg, PA today and stay overnight with Melissa Karmondy but my mom didn't want me to drive alone in the dark to a new place (I was going to go after work which was 4 and Anna couldn't come with me). So yeah I'm basically thinking about Friday missing school and going and then on Sat it's my open house so I have to be there and then Sunday is Chicago so I have to take off from work. I hope they won't get mad at me. I don't want to be fired or anything bad like that. I have my english portfolio and this bio test to do but its been taking me forever to do this english portfolio. I just don't want to do it and I really don't feel like doing it and I can't seem to force myself to do it. This sucks. Majorly. I want to get the whole thing done tomorrow so lets just hope this works. LOL. Well so yeah I've been depressed and kinda taking it out on Ryan. I love him to death but he can be so mean and I normally just take it but lately I just don't want to. And it's annoying. Sigh I wish he would just say Doan I would ditch the rest of the world to spend time with you. Because it doesn't seem like I'm good for Brown, Tufts, school, Key Club or anyone else and I just want someone to tell me they need me. Or something. Sigh. I haven't actually been able to just hang out with Ryan in forever. Every time we try to hang out we end up hanging out with people and its mostly my fault but sigh I just wanna hang out with him. We're suppose to hang out on Thursday but I can see this going horrible and our one year and a half is on monday so I still have to figure out what to buy him. Hmmmmm....maybe another PacSun Shirt? I don't know. I gotta figure out something. What did i do last year...oh yeah stars...hmmmm maybe something similar. I don't know but we're gonna hang out Monday and I hope that turns out amazing. I want to spend the whole day with him and happy. I don't want anything bad to go wrong but with my luck that does not seem like its going to happen. I think I missed Gilmore Girls today. I forgot about it and when I walked through the door I was like crap its tues night and it's 9:30!!!....today I've worked and driven my sister and brother around. I completely wasted my day as everyone else was having fun. Just great. And I could have gotten some school work done but no i didn't. And now I have a song stuck in my head from work and I have no idea who sings it, what the name is or all the lyrics. Sigh. Lets just hope the rest of spring break gets better!