|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||If you C Jordan|
So yeah haven't written in this blurty for a while but what else is new? Things have been going so horribly in the last few days. Antwan certainly does not make it better with his "nice" comments. But yeah I'm still trying to have everything work out with me and Ryan. Things were going pretty well until Monday when I found out about his lie. Now all I can think about when I'm near him is that. I get so frustrated with him over the littlest things now but ahhh I can't get that day out of my head. I'm going to try and distance myself from him as I did a few weeks ago because I was a lot happier then. And I did not feel this huge emotional attachment to him. Seriously, the smallest comment he makes can make me upset. I have to face the facts that he is just a cold person...sigh. But yeah now some people hate me, I've realized why my really good friends don't hang out with me anymore (ryan) and school is so bleh. I can't wait until the weekend is here. Key Club is going so crappy. I'm trying my hardest but the other officers won't help me at all and then I have Mr. Rep who thinks hes all high and mighty. AHHHHHHH this drives me insane. I want to go away for a very long time. I don't wanna be here anymore. Maybe I can just become withdrawn or something because I do not want to deal with people anymore. As Jean Paul Sarte has said..."hell is people"