|Current mood:||murderous *wink*|
OMFG!! no wonder our "relationship" is shit! she cant fucking do anything she says she will when it comes to this family!! yesterday i gave her meg's mom's number and tell her to call cus shes a control freak and has no trust in me and has to make sure im telling the truth and not going out and screwing around and doing drugs. all is good and well. she'll take me over there by 12 and meg's mom will take us to the movie blahblahblah. day turns into night the routine progresses and shizzle like that. this morning she leaves at like 1045 to take care of her 11 appt. i remind her i need to be there by 12. 'i'llbe back in time' money? 'yeah ill give u some' now..? 'when i get back' i call like 5billion times around 1150 to find out where the hell she is and she doesnt asnwer. whats the point of a cell phone if you odnt answer. so i tell megan to just go to the movie and call me when she gets home. satan calls and apologizes. yeah does a lotta good doesnt it. says she'll be home soon. woopdido. gets home and is like 'why was she so deteremined to go @ this time' cus shes going with her friend dan too.. i told you that.. damn. "and the plot thickens" yeah..ok, i told her that. then shes all thinking she will just take me over there an hour late.. 'im really sorry' i swear the next time she even opens her mouth to patronize me about not helping out around the house or WHATEVER i am just going to let her have it. she said she would stop drinking she said she would stop smoking she said she would do blahblahblah and she never fucking does. i saw her throw a cigarette this one time..i turn around and shes already got another in her mouth. it really makes me sick. she cant take responsibility for anything. everything bad in her life is the result of "someone else" for ex.. my dad being 'unavailable' i dunno i guess she thinks ppl take kindly to other ppl screaming in their face over every little thing. says she took so long cus the ppl were the 'gabbiest ppl shes ever met' yeah, but theyre ppl, so they understand if you have other things going on so its not like theyre gonna be all hurt and confused. damn
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i dont even know how to express what im feeling right now.. so im gonna go try to cool off. HAH.
*shakes fists somethin fierce*
i want a lover i dont have to love