|Current mood:|| complacent|
|Current music:||Lifehouse - The Beginning|
I'll Follow To A Place I Know.. That's Only The Beginning Start Over After Ending
I was in such a good mood yesterday... I re-arranged my room, went to work, went grocery shopping, came home talked to Johnny. He's really cool I'm glad my cousin kept pushing me to talk to him. I made a joke to Kate that I need to change the type of guys I date. Go for the good Christian guy or something. Then comes Johnny, he's exactly that type. It scares me....
I talked to Chris a bit... I feel for him. I know he's hurting so much right now. Usually when Chris is in a bad mood it puts me in one cause I really don't like to see him hurt of all people.. but yet it didn't. Could I possibly be losing my feelings for him? or just hope that there is an "us." He just confuses me. Things have changed so much between us in the last two weeks. First things were happy. Then his ex came back and things just changed. He doesn't know what he wants. He says he wants to get over her... but I dunno. It frustrates me that he sells himself short so much. A couple of days ago he texted my cell phone with "I love you" then "I'm trying to make you smile" and I'm like "wtf" um okay Chris.
Don't speak if you don't mean what you say....