|Current mood:|| tired|
So, did all my trading music with Jon last night. Oh - and just to make things worse. I took double pills last night so Im really really tired, and my mother decided not to tell me that ppl for carpet and vinal estimates were comming today. She woke me up at 7 and told me to go downstairs if i didn't want to be seen. Well, I personelly don't give a fuck. So I stayed, than she bitches and me and hits me. She gave me a choice - fucking tell me if you're too damn emabarrassed for others to see me, cause im not. She's a bitch, and frankly, the sooner im out the better. I want away from this family and away from this state. The only ppl worth it r friends. Everyone else can fucking die. Im tired and cant get to sleep now, wish Joe was here, than I could sleep.
So, my plans for the day? Since I took double pills and it looks like rain - staying it. Im gonna goof with the computer to piss ppl off. Tommrrow - mass reconstruction of my music shit in this computer and going to visit wolfie - though don't tell him that. It's a random surprise stop by on your friends lunch break sorta thing.
I was thinking last night. Bout Joe. You know this is the first time I have not been so obssessed with a guy to be calling them nonstop and just wait around for them? I actually feel like I can live my own life and have a boyfriend that I Love at the same time. It feels good actually. That's what's different. That and I think Joe and I - we're more relaxed, well at least I am than I have been before - which is nice. I trust him, I don't feel threatened by anyone either. It's nice, and it's going very well, at least I think so. I hope Joe isn't taking any offence to any of this. *smiles* I dunno, it just feels right. Ya know? I Love You.