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So far- Sitting here, as usal, and talking to James. Last night I got three new cds. Mya - "Moodring'," Vanessa Carlton, and Michelle Branch's "Hotel Paper." They're good. I like them. Good cds to listen to and should keep me busy for a while. The last ones have been boring me like..ehh. Well, Rell has not been online because she needs a modem, and Caitlin's going out. Starting tomorrow, I'm gonna start to go out for at least a week. Lely's birthday is on Friday. Party on Saturday. On Wednesday I'm getting a hair cut. I'm cutting it up to around my shoulders, a little past. Also, I'm getting highlights for the first time, probably in like...a bronze color. I think it'll look cute. If James gets a ride to come to Miami on Thursday, he so better come. I want to meet him. I mean, of course I'm nervous. What if he doesn't like me? What if he's some hairy guy? kidding..rofl. Which leads to the next subject...
Ooh, Ooh, Baby- Well, as for my love life, I know I said that I didn't want a boyfriend. Well, I don't mind having one. It's just that I don't need one for me to live. I've been talking to James for a while again, and those feelings as usual came back. We all know I wasn't over him, and I wanted to talk to him so I tried to get rid of my feelings for him, so I ignored them. I even told him I didn't want a boyfriend. It was kind of a mistake because I do want to be with him, and I do still like him. I know that I'm not the little girl I used to be. I know I have a lot to learn, but I've learned a lot in all that I've gone through with him. Maybe we just weren't ready then, but sometimes things happen. For example, you don't know how much someone means to you until you let them go, and you just want them back. Sometimes it can't happen, sometimes there's still hope left. Maybe we just had to learn where we're at, to be who we are, and then make it. I don't know. I've just never had faith in me and a guy like I have with him. Usually, it's easier than this to let someone go, especially after you haven't talked in such a long time. He says he likes me too, and he says he means it. Then there are the people who hate the idea of the probability that we'll get back together. Most people says "Alright, you do what you want" and leave it alone. You just don't bitch people out for following their hearts. That's just bullshit. And to all those ho's that be doing that, you can suck on my non-existant nuts like you probably do with all them other guys you be seein'. Sorry, ghetto came out of me. -cough- anyway... I don't really care what people say. True friends let you do what makes you happy, and in my heart, James is what's making me happy. They respect that. Sometimes, you gotta get your friends in check. So that's about it. Hope you had fun reading.
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