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Stupid Emotions....
Today we are supposed to be going to the Central Park Zoo, this makes me happy! I love the zoo and I can't wait to see how AJ reacts to the animals. That is going to be a lot of fun! Although, it's 12:45 and Jeff is still sleeping. I'm going to go walk the dogs and come back and wake him up soon. The zoo closes early (5ish I believe) and it takes an hour to get there.
On another note I am upset about this whole Steve thing. It's crap really. I told myself I was done with it but I miss him so much. I haven't talked to him in about a week and it's driving me crazy. Actually, I was fine until last night. He was supposed to call me and didn't. I'm not upset he didn't call, I know he was really busy and he'll call me first chance he can. However, what bothered me was that I was looking forward to talking to him. And I miss him so much! I have a lot more free time on my hands than he does and when I don't talk to him for a week I'm afraid he's going to...I dunno, forget about me. His last girlfriend and him just lost touch with each other and they lived in the same town...This worries me. I want to just stop thinking about it but it's really hard to. I want to have faith in our relationship but I know my history. I finally have something so perfect and it's really hard to just be so free with it, and not worrisome. I'm not worried that he's going to cheat on me, he's a good guy and wouldn't do that. I'm just worried that he's not going to remember what we have...I guess then if that happens than it's not as perfect as I thought it was....
I wish someone would talk to me and tell me that it's going to be fine and reassure me that he loves me and won't forget about me cuz I'm something special. That won't happen though....
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