driving sucks, i want to quit already. i really can't concentrate and i have a short attention span that lasts maybe 15 minutes out of a 90 minute lesson. i have this tendency to dissociate what my limbs are doing from my impulses and thoughts, which means sometimes in my mind i'm yelling 'STOP!!' but my foot just stays still for a good 3 seconds, idling away. it's the same with sewing-- my foot just gets too comfortable on the accelerator pedal. when i do vertical parking i just go through the steps mechanically, steering left, left, right, left, keeping my eye on the top left corner of the rear window, wishing i were somewhere else. and gears are stupid-- i just end up following instructions and counting down the minutes during every lesson.
i haven't gone for driving lessons in like, 3 weeks or something, which is ridiculous. by the time i'm back i'll probably have to relearn everything from scratch. i've spent over $1100 in the past 4 days on myself, on clothes and shoes and food and taxi fares, and i'm sick. i've been having a three-day mild headache, i've been having bad cramps though my period just ended, and i've been feeling nauseous every minute. ugh.
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