|Current mood:|| pissed off|
|Current music:||Bloodhond Gang - I Hope You Die|
I Hate the Fucking Wench...
In today's news, I was playing Everquest at Eric's while I have been visiting him.
The background story: Eric has been playing EQ for 4 years and has quite a few friends in the game. He dated a girl under the name "Tiezaria" (realname- Wendy) whom still has mad feelings for him.
Well, before I get into whats pissing me off, I'd like to note what hapened before this:
Eric was scrolling the chat bar so I couldn't see what "Teizaria" was typing to him..
as if he was paranoid that I would see what she was typing or vice versa.
Well, I had shut down my character, turned off the computer monitor and laid down on the bed cringing to the pillows nearly pissed off. Well, Eric comes over and asks whats wrong, so I said that the group I was with are a bunch of dickheads and whatnot (which was true on top of the matter) and that he can go back to talking to Wendy about whatever because I won't be able to see it and he can stop being paranoid.
I think he understood everything.
Well, we talked and I got back on EQ and was playing for nor more than oh.. say.... 10 minutes or so when things just got progressively worse...
... I was back on EQ and levelling my own character, and as I was looking over at Eric's screen to see how his kills were doing and what the different kills look like, I started reading bullshit that Wendy was typing in the 'raid' chat.
She was talking about how she remembers their character's
(Neveul and Arienne)
first kiss and their first shower under some waterfall in the game..
Now, in my mind, all I can think of is "I don't want to hear this; I don't want to know your past with my fiancee; I don't want you to bring up old memories- they are FUCKING DEAD YOU BITCH! KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF!!"
More into what she was typing to *him* was that she felt guilty for teasing one of their friends and cyb3ring* him.. resulting in feeling guilty and saying how she would never do it again unless if it was with him, being Eric.
This made me sick and my body was shaking.. I was so sick to where I was nearly ready to get up from my seat and go to the bathroom to throw up. I wanted her to stop so badly..
She continued throughout the night, hitting on him, making passes and saying how they should cyb3r* sometime ("because it's ' special' "- pfft, what-the-fuck-EVER).
Things like.. 'think of it as a greeting card- it's wods tht make someone feel good'-- ok, no; fuck you, gag me already, bitch.
I didn't know if she was kidding all night but I don't really fucking think she was considering the fact that I hadn't seen a single fucking "j/k" out of anything she was typing.
I know that she still hopes for another chance to be with him even though she knows there won't be one-- but it's just the way that she was typing last night that made me so sick, paranoid, upset, and utterly disgusted that I was ready to send /tell's to her telling her to stop.
But wouldn't ya know...
I was hoping that Eric would put a (very obscene) blatant stop to everything instead of being polite and just ignoring her or laughing at her.
No, he didn't like what she was saying, but apparently his attempts of ingoring her or laughing at her as if it was a joke isn't working-- she's just not stopping.
And according to Eric, she's been talking like this for some time now, even though she knows we are engaged.
I trusted her earlier and now I just plainly HATE the wench.
I'm tired of feeling paranoid or disgusted because of some chick hitting on my boyfriend, or bringing up how they wish they were back together or WHATEVER, knowing goddamn fucking well we are ***involved***.
I want Wendy to stop, and shut up- to just realize that there is no chance in hell that they are getting back together and that the passes she makes at Eric need to fucking STOP.
Muchly added, that I saw everything she typed and that I feel offended by her talking like that to Eric; as if cyb3ring* and her type of talk was meaningless even though he is involved with someone and it isn't Wendy.
I swear to god, it's like this is running through her head:
---> "I know I've got no chance with him, and he doesn't want me at all, but maybe if I keep doing this it might piss him off enough, I'll end up hurting him and revenge will be mine." ... or some shit like that.
She has NO FUCKING CLUE THAT I SAW **EVERYTHING** SHE TYPED!
Y'know.. I know Eric is gonna talk to her about her bullshit behavior and chat and show me the log file of what he said to her.. but whether or not it sticks in her head, much less if she actually STOPS.. I don't know.. and thats what worries me.
And what else, when he DOES talk to her, I want him to mention that I saw *everything* she typed and that I am very fucking offended (yes, those words exactly) because it seems as if she doesn't give a rat's ass that he's involved and its not with her... as if she has no morals to just S-T-O-P her bullshit, not knowing if it might be bothersome or hurtful to him or OUR relationship.
(We've been together for 9 months on the 30th =D)
**I'm still shakey, still sick and disgusted and unless this is stopped, I will be making an attempt to confront Wendy, myself..
.. .... .... .. .... ... at the very worst, I just won't talk to Eric because it will make me feel sick inside.**
I'M TIRED OF THIS GODDAMN FUCKING BULLSHIT! I WANT IT TO FUCKING STOP NOW! I HATE IT- ITS DISGUSTING AND I'M FUCKING TIRED OF READING SHIT COMING FROM EX G/F'S! I WANT IT TO FUCKING STOP ***NOW*** ! AND IF T DOESN'T- I'M GOING TO END UP DOING SOMETHING DRASTIC AND IT ISNB'T GONNA BE FUCKING PRETTY...