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| Current music: | heartless - seven ten split |
fuck
ok yea...thrusday night...
the day i wrote in my blurty that i would never cheat on coty...
guess what happened that night??
i made out wiht my ex..who i HATE
i mean i hate the guy and i made out with him??
god i'm stupid
i dont know why i did...i really dont...
but i hate myself..
anyway...
i mean, we made out, and thats about, i couldnt stop the kissing part,
but at least could stop anything else
i mean...
anyway,
friday night, i call coty...
and i tell him what i did..
i dknot know if i made the right choice
but hell, i have to be honest
i love him
i really do
he's the only thing that kept me from blowing my head off
and look what i've done to him!!!
god, please save me
i wonder if anyone even reads these things i right...
anyway, i know a few people do...
so, genna..i'm still
i dont know what to do genna...what am i gunna do...
i broke connies wall lasta night hitting it
i feel bad...
being fucked up is not an excuse to do the shit i did
there is no excuse...none at all
i cryed so much last night, my eyes are still burning...
thank you missy, tre...E...expessially connie...for being ther for me....
*sigh*
i can't believe i did that...
i can't believe it...
god i'm so stupid...
you have no idea how much i love coty
no idea...
he's alll i've talked about, dreamt about, thought about...
look at what i've done to him...
fuck fuck fuck
i dont know what i want to happen...
i love him so much...
but i'm scared
i dont know if i wanna stay with him...
he shouldn't of been hurt like htat
he's given up so much for me...
look what i've done...god...
look what i've done...
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