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Ohhhhh god. This week sucked. Chloe killed herself...what joy. Ricky Danny and Lil won't tell me how though....think I know enough or some other shit. I guess it's for my own good. Whatever. I've been in a really crappy mood forever...and I sleep a lot latley. I used to enver sleep and now that's all I do. I'm also in a weird eating phase. Most of the time I'm a pig...that's normal. But some days I don't eat anything, well next to nothing. Yeah I ahven't eaten once today...and I'm hungry but I just have no desire to get up and make myself something. And I can't go in my kitchen b/c it reminds me of Chloe because there is the clock that she wrote shit down on behind so my parents wouldn't see (they don't know she exsists) and I dunno I just cry whenever I see it. I ahve strep again, what joy, so I'll be home the rest of today and tomorrow. I feel like crap...and I think Danny's nails were too long and he cut my so now it hurts like a mother fucker. Ah whatever they're (ricky danny and lil) here because they don't really trust me on my own...I wouldn't either....but whatever.
xxzzxxolliexxzzxx
"..the world did cry, the night you died. and i am no good at suicide.."
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