|Current mood:|| blah|
|Current music:||Josh Kelly's "For the Ride Home" cd|
"leaving town slips into my head again.." (josh kelly)
I feel....quite....broken. Of course, there are various reasons.
1. My family is the only thing keeping me home. I hate my job here, I hate the memories I've left in this town, and I've lost the friends I used to have. I am so alone compared to my life at school. Oh, and I love how I've even lost my best friend to a certain pseudo-friend lately...."I promised her I'd go shopping with her, we're going to buy apartment stuff." wow. yeah. you have fun with that, really. Living with a bitch, a girl who's name makes her sound like a dog, bitch's boyfriend, and your former booty call. I love you, I really do....I just hate what is happening. And why don't my old friends even call me anymore? What the fuck?!
2. I think Austin is upset with me. I just feel really bad, neither of us really had time over break to even talk, let alone see each other like we both had planned. grrrr....maybe it wasn't supposed to work out...whatever.
3. I am mad sleep deprived.
4. I work until 11 on New Year's Eve....ahhhhhhhhhhhh. But I have off NY's Day. So. Hopefully I'll still have time to go out and get tanked and just be hungover on my day off.
Tonight I am living it up Oshy style with my girl Alissa. We are going out to get sloshed and have fun and giggle and do all the things I love best.
7 DAYS UNTIL COMPLETE HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Cus' it's you that I'm runnin' to, baby, 'cause you are home to me" -jk