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And as if breaking my heart and destorying the last happiness I ever had was not enough... torture me with a piece of shit note of being unloved and without my friendship. How low could you possibly go. You did not even have enough guts to tell me. My gosh how hard is it for you to just talk to me. Just leave me there on my doorstep with a note of how horrible you feel and how i do not care. Like you fucking know. You know nothing. You think this journal lets you in on all of my feelings about this shit? It most certainly does not. I cannot believe this. Leave me there. Stir up all of these damn emotions I have still left inside of my itty bruise heart. What? Do you want me to kill myself, because you are doing the best job at making me feel so horrible and sad and completly unhappy. Seriously I am just tired of crying. What do you expect me to do? You do not talk to me for days and just bounce on me like everything is fine. The unresolved issues we had during that hell are still within me. Afraid. Thats all i get from you. "I'm afraid. I was afraid to come over and cried." what the hell are you afraid of? As if i could hate you when you say something. You have said nothing to me for the entire month and I hate you. Such shittiness you have done to me. You are just so selfish. Have you ever thought about how all of this made me feel? How you ever considered for a fact that I did love you and what you did sent me through a loop.
Yes, i am being a person that says one thing and does another. Until you learn to be a human being, I reverse to let you even be near me. Because, you are killing me. I am dying. And you will not stop. You have yet to come over to have our talk. That shows exactly how much you care about the situation. I am tired of the excuses of being afraid and am tired of your carelessness. Get over your deal and your pietiful excuses.
Sadly enough I do care. Hopefully you will just kill me and end this stupid shit.
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