Why is it everyone can't mind their own buisness??
My back is still hurting. No surprise there. It's not as bad as before though, thankfully. It's finally getting better!
Yesterday was pretty normal and slowpaced. We caught up on work, and no one had any problems. Well. Okay. The minor problem of people being nosy about me and Hisoka kinda got on my nerves but other than that it was fine.
Seems everyone in the office is placing bets on when we'll sleep together. Terazuma is delighting in pissing me off, using Hisoka as a way to make me blush. And what's worse, Wakaba thought my back being sore was because Hisoka had-- argh. You know what to me. She gave me KY as a gift too. Lucky for her she got the hint to leave, and Hisoka added yet another dead pencil to the stack in his drawer.
I got a little mad and had an outburst, yelling at everyone to just stop it cause the teasing was just rubbing my nose in the fact that we WEREN'T doing anything. No one bothered me about it for the rest of the day after that. I couldn't help but feel a little left out though, cause Watari and Hijiri are... well, rather lovey dovey nowadays. I know if I tried kissing or touching Hisoka two things would happen: 1. People would tease us and Hisoka would get mad, and 2. Hisoka would get mad and either shove me away or slug me.
So I just don't do it. It's hard enough to get him to cuddle at home. He's not very public about his affections, and though I understand, it feels sort of....cold. I probably shouldn't be feeling like this... I'm going to try and ignore it, and hope that the feeling passes. I don't want to make Hisoka feel bad about this, I know he loves me. But to him, he never had sex that was tender or loving, so he doesn't really understand what I mean when I say I want him.
I just have to bear with the chastity, and show him little by little. I think he can learn. But he's not ready for it yet. I guess until then it'll be cold showers for me each morning. *sigh*
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