|Current mood:|| depressed|
BULLSHIT...i fucked up. I lost one of the best male friends ive ever had. CLARISSA FUCKED UP AGAIN. How could i be so stupid?...What he thinks i did isnt really what went down...but I still feel like i could have helped the situation. HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO STUPID. We've only known each other for a lil while but i still had so much feelings for him...his personality was sooooo perfect. yeah, i guess i was attracted to him, But if i had to choose, i'd pick the friendship. I love him to death and i dont think he knows that. I was one of the very few that he was nice to...and i fucked it up. I'm so stupid and i have nobody to blame but myself. I didnt mean to put that damn message up man...I hope hes reading this...and if he is...i wouldnt dare put his first name out there...BUT ARNOLD. PLEASE 4GIVE ME. I love you...pleez pleez pleeeeez! And to make things so ironic...i met ARNOLD the day my ex told me he didnt want to speak to me anymore...and guess what?...the day arnold decides he doesnt want anything to do with me...my ex decides to pop up out of nowhere. yeah...crazy, right?...ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHH...and look...im crying. GOT DAMMIT!