ryan broke up with me yesterday. we've been fighting all day at school. he just doesnt understand how i feel...i mean, okay. grr. everything was fine friday when we went to the movies. we were all happy and we decided we would work on our problems and everything was going great. we havent got into a fight until last night. he said we should of tooken a break last time. how is that supposed to make me feel? he tells me we're okay, then he tells me we're over. that's like kicking my heart around. and yeah i went a little psycho bitchy today, but can you honestly blame me? i feel hurt and crushed, but im OKAY, for the sake of him, i'm okay. i can handle this "us being friends" for awhile, since we both need it obviously. i just feel, like i've been kicked out of a special club or something. i dont know what to do. i love the boy, i do. i love him more than he knows. i know i can be a psycho, but if i didnt love him, he'd be dead by now, right? haha. well. blah. im goingg to go lay down and wait for him to get online.