| Current mood: | emo |
| Current music: | watching memento |
blah blah blah... emo like whoa.
The emo-ness has gotten worse. Now I'm fighting the urge to cry. I hate being like this, and I hate that I'm still affected by the silliest little things. Bah, I don't really feel like getting into it, because I'll wind up bawling my eyes out over this, but I will say this; when will I learn? There will always be someone else standing in the way, because I'm just not good enough to actually keep people around. Something in me is lacking. ((sighs)) Maybe one day, I'll find out what it is, fix it and have someone who's right for me fall madly in love with me. Ha. I don't know why I'm all worried about this. This is the exact same thing that I told Billy not to worry about. We're still young, and we have the rest of our lives to find someone special who we connect with. I just really wish it were now, because heck, living in Jersey is VERY lonely, especially if you don't have a boyfriend, and have only guys who you "see" occaisonally. No one steady person to make you feel all warm and tingly inside, because you know they're thinking about you just as much as you, if not more. Boo. Playing the detached female isn't as much fun anymore. Maybe I want more now. Maybe. We'll see.
I'm thinking I shouldn't think too much. <33 toodles.
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