| Current mood: |  energetic |
| Current music: | riddlin' kids - i feel fine |
i feel fine, doesnt really matter now, cause im all right, nock my on my ass agian, but i dont mind
well tonight i got to spend some quality time with my bestest bud in the whole wide world...TASHA!!! i love her so much she one of the greatest ppl i know. we watched the movie "O" , it was kinda cool. but enough about her.
craig was checking out my ass today. the only reason i know that is cause he comented on my good charlotte patch thats on my back pocket. he called me a good charlotte freak. hes the freak, always obsesing over my friends. geez...why do i care for him so much? i just dont get it...we have one of those love hate relationships. we love to pick on each other. he talks shit to me i tell him that he knows he loves me then he talks more shit and i tell him to fuck off and then he says you know i love ya and then he tells me to go away and i tell him to bite me and then as he is walking away i yell that i luv him. its so amusing. i love that i can joke around with him like that, hell last semester i wasnt talking to him cause he hurt me so bad. ya see i have a crush on him, straight out, and he knew it. then one night me, him, and some other friends of ours went to the symphony for class. then we get back to my dorm room and all of us watch a movie. our friends leave and craig stays behind and starts kissing me. well come to find out he thinks its a fling while i was thinking that we were hooking up cause we had brought up the subject of actually hooking up. let just say i was crushed when i found out what he thought that night was. but atleast we didnt have sex cause that would have totally screwed up EVERYTHING! but we are friends again cause i cant avoid him where ever i go. so i decided to put it behind me and im glad i did cause now i can give him a hard time about shit. and know that i can go to him if i need his help. but he seems to need my help more then i need his.
while my little group of friends has some things to work out, i have a small situation of my own. there is this guy that i talk to online once in a while. and today he told me something that really freaked me out. actually a few things. and while i think he is a sweet heart i feel that he has the wrong idea about our friendship. and i wish that there is an easy way to let him down, but thats impossible. i want him to know how much a treasure our friendship and that i dont want anything to come between us because i dont feel the same way for him that he feels for me.
this is just a little extra that i feel like adding tonight. i wrote this last year, and while i like it the way it is it still seems incomplete. i wish i could add to it, but everything i try just doesnt seem to fit. grrr...
you are a dream i never wish to wake from
and a wish i so want to come true
at night when i close my eyes
oh well thats all for tonight, g'night yalls!!!
all i see is you
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