I'm new here, quite obviously, and I thought it was time that I made an introduction for myself.
My name is Sarah. I am here for reasons many of you are here: I want to be a different person.
I am not morbidly obease, but I am not skinnier than a rail. I would love to be. No wait, I would die to be.
I want to say that each day gets easier, but in some ways it feels harder to do this everyday. But I feel determined to make this work. I feel it is easier to live as a thinner person and as I lose weight, and as my body feels lighter, but I can sometimes feel the energy level go down too. I have cut out most of the sugar I used to eat. Today alone I only had the suagr from a piece of fruit. Well the suagr in my diet has been abscent for several days anyhow, and I want to say that it is contributing to me feeling better. I never really drank soda or had candy or any of that, but other things with sugar. It's like a wonderful brain-chemical release.
I am also recovering from recently being sick, so I am not sure if that is why I feel tired or if its that I really have not been eating a whole lot lately. The tiredness is what makes each day feel so hard to get through. I feel as though I do not have a lot of energy sitting still, but in moving around and doing. (Is this normal?) This tends to make sitting at a desk during the day feel unbearable.
I have been eating a lot of grapfruit lately-has anyone had any good experinces with that?
Oh boy, does it sound like I am killing myself off? That isn't my intent- I just want to look good is all.
I also want to point out that I follow a vegan lifestyle by the foods I eat (and the clothes and other items I buy.) I have done my research and know my limits on following this. That part of my life has never been a problem.
It's the new elements that somewhat bother me throughout the day. Not being around food all day has been a big help. Out of sight and --obsessidly-- out of mind. I feel like I am becoming anorexic lately. Even my tummy swoops in more than it used to. (I find that sexy. And no I do not look emaciated.) And I feel that people of the past (pre-now me) would agree that there is a change in me.
Thats me for now.
Thanks for listening. I hope I made sense up there. ^^
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