I am annoyed and very disappointed. I am disappointed with my so called friends and annoyed that they are so fake. I thought it was just people that I knew at school, but no, it's people from church as well. I went to church this evening and saw quite a few people that I know, and every single one of them blanked me. They were just so rude. It's not as if they didn't see me, they stood around me, talking to Ben and Harriet, as if I wasn't there at all. Someone even walked passed me with their head bowed low so as to avoid any kind of eye contact that could have been made. My old student cell leader whom I knew kind of briefly compared to everyone else, couldn't even remember who I was. I'm just disappointed.
I don't really know where I belong now. I know I don't belong up north, that's NEVER going to happen. I would like to think I belong in Leicester, but that doesn't seem to be happening. I don't belong in London long term, I love being there because I'm with Malcolm, and getting to know his family, and I just love London. But where I stand at the moment, I don't belong there.
So where do I belong? Maybe I'm just to float around for a while until I feel settled in one place. I haven't felt completely a part of a place for an extremely long time, it just feels less stable than it did before.
My family were discussing yorkshire puddings today, and how people from Yorkshire are way too proud of thier "invention" of them, whereas they're actually just cup shapes of batter. How exciting for them. Someone said "I find that people from yorkshire are much ruder than Southerners, and even pompous Londoners have more manners and acceptance of other people than people from Yorkshire. Someone else agreed. And to be perfectly honest, sadly, I'd have to agree. Upon experience, living in a part of yorkshire myself and having a yorkshire man on my team, I find them to be extremely mean and rude, and unneccesarily proud of themselves. And having lived and spent much time in London, having family from London also, although they are "Southern" and may sound "posh" but they most certainly are entirely much nicer people.
Man, I'm hating people right now, I hate it when people are rude and two faced and I am so disappointed in man kind right now.
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