| Current mood: |  nostalgic |
| Current music: | Paul Simon ~ America |
yeah i know its been ages. But alas i am here once again. I really have no clue what i have written here in the past, but for some odd reason i feel like i need to make my self known tonight. I cant sleep...oh well. So im here in boston, one of the great cities in the United States, yet alone the world...yet I feel so damn alone. I miss having friends I could call at all hours of the night whether it be because i was freaking out over something, or just simply to talk. Last year, sitting outside of west with Ben and Linsey...at 3:30 in the morning just because i couldnt sleep, ya know those nights when you toss and turn and your damn brain just wont turn off and all of a sudden it feels like the weight of the world is falling on you. All i had to do was go over to my computer, take down my away message and all of a sudden lins ims me shocked that I was still awake. Within a few minutes I am outside infront of my dorm with ben and lins, shaking while I spilled everything that i was worrying about upon attentive ears...after i finished we sat for a bit longer chain smoking talking about how we wish things were different, what we wanted to do. Its nights like that I felt as if someone cared, and i felt that they knew that I would do the same for them...and on many an occation I did. Then everone went on their own ways...and i was left behind. Northeastern is a great school and I am having an ok time here. But i just miss the closeness of my friends at UNE and home. I guess part of this is stemmed from going home for the weekend. I had a really nice time...saw skull at quinnipiac, but that is a story for a different time. I went to the beach and just sat and staired at the sky, then i saw jana and shannon...gosh how I miss those girls. and now my brain is starting to slow down as i realize that I have to be up for an 8 am Discrete Structures class...ahhhh how i hate math...oh well we all make mistakes. I really just want to be back on wes's boat, in his back barn with the banana crew, shooting the shit, daydreaming, playing with the bonfire, sleeping in my car........
ohh..under the weight of life, things seem brighter on the other side.....
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