|Current music:||pj harvey - who the fuck?|
who the fuck?
i'm really fucking horny. seriously, i hate/love this feeling. i've been listening to pj harvey and waiting for this stupid hurricane to come. i took my mom's vikoden and it's kicking in so now i'm horny and high. where is a hott guy when you need one? (matt b.? hm?) i'd even take a hott girl right now. i'm still bi-curious and it's getting on my nerves. i hate not knowing..or not wanting to know. i want to go to a club and bathe in the that flourescent, drug infused atmosphere. i want to go into a dark corner, being covered in glitter and making love while i drip glitter-sweat onto my lover. doesn't angeldust sound so nice? like powdered-sugary shimmer. probably silver or irrdescent pearl colored, that is blue-purple in the right light. i read it makes kids gauge there eyes out. not so pretty anymore. i'm going into my room and turning on pj harvey loud and i'm going to end up throwing myself around the room and touching myself alone in my purple glowing-globe room. is it to much to be loved?
i'm not eating tomorrow. i need to lose a few pounds. so next summer i'll be a pale, fleshy-white flower.