|Current mood:|| thoughtful|
|Current music:||Tears for Fears- "Mad World"|
.*.But if the world could remain in a frame like a painting on a wall, then I think we would see the beauty
then we would stand staring in awe.*.
Sometimes I get frustrated, not with one thing inparticular, just a bunch of stuff. But, I really shouldn't have that much stressing me out. I have it pretty easy and I know that. I just wonder if I'll ever be 100% satisfied with myself. I know that I have been before. But, right now I just feel like I need a guy to feel better, even though I know thats not true. Because when I was the 'happiest' my relationship with God was the best, even though at that time I was ignorantly ga ga over a certain boy, but I didn't have him hurting me constantly. As much as I look forward to the future, the more I think about it there are some moments I wish I could just go back and relive. I wonder if I'll have more moments like that, I hope so... but when they're here I take them for granted and don't realize what I have until later. I mean I'm young I'm bound to have a bunch of good times ahead of me right? And there will be other guys to love? Well, how do I know if thats true? How am I supposed to possibly know? I don't know and thats what scares me. On a happier note tommorrow is Thanksgiving and its Darbys birthday. Happy Birthday to him!