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yeah yeah. I thought i'd gotten over him. obviously not. Its just that everytime i seem to forget about him, i suddenly miss him so bad. Like I see people that I think are him. It's just weird and confusing and I hate it. I just wish everything was simple and that I could just be with him. I just miss him so bad it hurts. Sometimes I just want to quit school and move up to be with him and just marry him and we could be together forever. I know it would never be that simple and happy though. I'm gradually accepting that more and more though. Which is good I guess. I gotta think of all the hurtful things he did to me and not just the good parts of our relationship. as much as i try to put him up as this loving guy, he did some pretty bad things to me and i can never fully forget how much he hurt me too.
yeah i'm stupid. someone needs to bash me over the head with a lead pipe.
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