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| Current music: | Everyday - Bon jovi |
My lovelife
Mr. Married (the man that I used to love) make a one step to help me to forget him. Just be4 he introduce me to one of his friend, he already told me about the guy one month earlier. But, I took it as a joke for me from him becoz I don't think he don't have any feeling with me anymore. Unfortunately, I'm wrong. A guy called me & told me that he want to be my friend. From the information he gave me, he's the one of Mr. Married recommended for me. But, he's been set up by Mr. Married & one of their friend so he had no idea how can I knew him be4 he know me.
The guy that have been set up for me is 28 yrs old & working in one of the engineering company at KL. He's Kelantanese and shorter than me. Not shorter-lah, just at the same level with me. For the 1st time he called me, I get angry becoz he lied to me from where he got my no. He don't know that I knew him earlier than he know me. He try to make things clear for me, & luckily for him, it's make me ..(sorry got a call...continue later).
He such a good guy for me. He can make me happy & laugh. But it doesn't mean I already fall in love with him. He call me everyday form his office & sometimes from her mobile phone. From the deep of my heart, I want to meet him. I want to know the person that have been choosen for me by someone that I love, Mr. Married. We plan a blind date at KL. I wait for him at CM for a while & then took a LRT to have a movie at KLCC. We had such a good day. I enjoy every seconds with him. We talk so much about movie, Survivors, digicam, pc & so many things. It was a happy day in my life. I don't know his feeling to me, I just hope he don't have any feeling with me. I just feel that I'm hanging out with my male best friend. The wrong thing is, I keep questioning him about Mr. Married & the more I know about Mr. Married, the more I miss Mr. Married.
Yesterday, we have another movie at Mines Shopping Fair. I dunno what's wrong, but I feel so booooooring with him. I'm very fed-up with him until I said, "Awak ni boringlah,". I know he hurt when he heard me said like that. But, I hate the situation we both had yesterday. I felt guilty too because I think I'm playing with him. I know he like me, but I just want him as a friend. I don't need a bf rite now. I took a cab to go back home & leave him alone. When I reached home, I don't even SMS him to tell him I'm home already as I did the last time from KLCC.
Night, he called me & say sorry. I don't need his sorry. I just want him to say, "We're just a friend" & he understand that I just want to be a friend not his special gf. I can't be his gf because I still love Mr. Married & it's not fair to him if I'm going to be his gf just to make me more closer with Mr. Married.
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