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Im Back!
I know I have not been updating my journal for quite a long time now. I may have been too dazed with the turn of events. Decisions and responsibilities everywhere had to be made.
Before the end of October, I was contemplating of resigning from Edsamail. And I did. But even at the last minute, I was having second thoughts. I’m thinking if I would still be able to get a job after this. I’ve only been here for 3 months. I’m worried that people, especially my Dad will think badly of me. I really tried to stay and be satisfied with my job here. But I think trying to force myself to stay made things worse. My health is failing and I am not happy with my work outputs. I still work but I am not happy. I am not proud of the things I submit. They do not pass my own standards. There’s too much politics and I’m running out of patience. So towards the end of the day, I tendered my resignation without knowing what was happening with the rest of the office. At that very day around 15 other employees were retrenched or resigned, too. I gulped down my fear and talked to my father about what’s happening and my plans. And I’m glad I did. He agreed with me. My resignation really gave me such a relief.
But that very weekend, something bad happened to Che’s mom. I know most of you are now aware of what happened. I’m so glad that she’s safe and home now. We were really rattled with that incident. At least the only serious damage it caused is on the right hand. Still a lot of hassle, but it can be worse.
Now, going back to my home sweet home... Ate Joan, my only sibling left living with us in my parent’s house, until recently. She moved to another house 5 minutes away from us. She moved next door to our other sister. But since she’s not working, she was the one looking after our house and taking care of our Dad. Now that she transferred to another house, it’s all my responsibility. Che and I can not go out that much anymore at night since there’s no stopping my mom from her nightly activities. We just don’t feel safe that my dad is practically alone at night especially with his diabetes and heart condition. But come to think of it, it’s the perfect time to rekindle our closeness…Now he’s left with no other choice. ;)
And friends don’t worry… this only means that you guys are now even more welcome to our humble abode.
In another light…
After almost trembling in fear and paranoia in going back to job hunting, I survived and conquered! I will officially start on Monday. It’s oh so great! I will do the marketing of some computer hardware. And the office is so near my house. I’m happy. I just hope I’d be able to balance things just fine. Now Che would be teeming in F.I.C ice cream and cha lum pao (I’m sure my spelling is incorrect. But Baby, you know what I’m talking about…) So it’s true that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. :D
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