|Current mood:|| amused|
|Current music:||Berlin - Take My Breath Away|
i'm listening to Berlin's Take My Breath Away and Stephen Bishop's It Might Be You on repeat.
request ni Daddy e. gah. hahaha.
How do you know if you're really over a person? What if you see him with his girlfriend, and you keep getting all these "ka-chings" because of subtle signs that you don't know if you're imagining or are really there? What are you going to do? What if you're some self-conscious idiot who tries hard not to get noticed by the people around you and end up squirming in your chair and looking like you're lost in la-la land in the process.
And so, you go home early. Hay.
Then you obsess about it while you're at home. You can't tell your best friend because he's out, and although you know he will still be the same understanding and considerate prick that he is, it will unconsciously change some things.
Then you figure out, I don't want to fucking obsess about it anymore. I'm over him.
Then this really nice guy friend you talk to online tells you that you're not over him. As long as the "ka-chings" are there, you're not over him. Stupid "ka-chings", you think. They're not the "boom! boom! weeeeeeeee! bangs!" that you hear when you're with your best friend. But that doesn't mean they're not there.
and you can't tell your friends because they're "ka-ching" man's friends too. oh woe is you.
so what do you do?
wala. you sulk. and you promise never to set foot in a place where he's with his girlfriend is. you're not jealous, mind you. you just don't want the awkwardness it'll bring if the girlfriend notices that your "ka-chings" are out of place. if there's someone who'll notice, it's the girlfriend. and the girlfriend is your friend, so you don't want to start a mess over something that's not worth it. you don't really want to hook up with him anymore. you have your "boom boom weeeeeee bang" guy already. what the hell do you need the "ka-chings" for?
So you ponder.
And ponder some more. Then you decide to bug your lj friends about it.
HEHEHE I LOVE YOU ALL :D