|Current mood:|| contemplative|
|Current music:||From First To Last - My Heart, Your Hands|
Well here I am...
Just thought I'd write in this here journal cause I was bored and I think its been awhile. I just finished my CIS work thats due today I handed in and waiting for it to be graded so I can get the heck out of here. This computer place gives me headaches, and im not the only one! (SHARA!). But yah...this class is pushing me to my limit. I'm so sick of this crap day in and day out over and over. A stupid class it is. I went to screen printing today too. I printed a shirt with a horse on it. It came out totally crappy! But in a way it looks cool cause it looks crappy. I dont know...but i kinda like it. I was told by my radio colleagues to ask the teacher if we can get our 105.1 The Disc shirts printed there. The teacher said ok thats fine. YOU can do it! ME! He wants me to print 100 shirts! And he said it would count as my final project which is cool. But me! 100! That will be interesting...they'll probably all turn out like crap. Oh well. I've been talking to Mitch about sharing an apartment. I've been really wanting to move out for the longest time. But its weird cause it seems as soon as I'm out of the house my whole life will dramatically change from easy going to pay rent bills struggle to survive on my own kinda thing. I just hope I'm ready to make that step...but first to be ready I have to make sure I have a good well paying job! Which means double the effort in looking for a new job. It's also funny to read mitch talk about his mission and life. And I totally understand where he's coming from. Like my parents have had 5 boys (one in heaven now). So 4 boys...the first 3 pretty much failed there expectations. They didnt go on missions they dont go to church and two still live at home heh. And I've always been there last chance for a good son. They've pressured me so much and even told me "You always were the one we'd knew would go on a mission." And it breaks my heart cause I want to go just for them. But then again I dont feel im ready and everyone says it will make me happy! But in reality it really isnt or hasn't yet. Anyways...thats just a little into my side of the story that mitch is going through heh. Oh and lately I've felt this urge to not be alone anymore. Yes finally its hit me again. I dont know why but it has. It's been like years without anyone and I've loved being the single guy having fun. And I never even second guessed ever being anyway different till now. I dont know just lately that mood as lingered over head. I haven't dated anyone in awhile either. So I think I will keep my eyes open and look now. If you've ever even thought of moving in on me..heheh haha like that would ever happen. And it felt as I ignored you or shut you down sorta speak. Thats probably cause I wasnt ready to move back into the so called scene. But now I am..my eyes are open...so try again! heh. Anyways this entry has gotten to personal and too long. So I'll end it now. SEE YA!