the life of a vegetable
nothing seems appealing right now. majority of my friends dont, school doesnt, home doesnt, going somewhere or anywhere doesnt, boys dont. all i feel like doing is getting into bed and listening to music.
You know what i hate?
I hate feeling a deep connection with someone that you dont have a deep connection with at all. You want to talk/hold/comfort/laugh with/cry with/hug etc. with that person and you cant. they dont know you, they dont have a clue about how you feel. You arent even sure why you feel that way but you do and it hurts. You have no communication with them for fear of scaring them away so you sit by and watch them live their life that you so desperately want to be included in on and you cant do one single thing about it. It's a familiar feeling to me that probably no one understands. myself included. Oh well though, right? It will probably never change.