| Current mood: |  jealous |
| Current music: | Hoobastank "The Reason" |
i don't know what to think....i'm scared of losing him...
so this whole laurin thing is botherin me...part of me thinks she's jealous that i've got him and she can't have him...i think she likes him...and when i told wendy about it...she thought the same thing...i don't know what phillip thinks....i hope he doesn't want her...he says he doesn't...i just hope that what he really means and how he really feels....
part of me thinks that what she said about me is right....that he doesn't deserve me...that he's better than me and that he can find better than me...but then i think that if i lose him...i will no longer be whole...he's my other half....she can't have him...she just can't....he's mine and i love him with everything that i possess...i would risk my life for him....and i know he'd do the same....
then why do i feel this way...why do i feel that she likes him and a small part of him likes her....like when he liked wendy....what then...huh...then it was just attraction...but i don't know anymore...he says that when he goes out...he looks at other girls...he just doesn't touch....because "i can look, but i can't touch"....well...i mean...i know i look at guys...but i don't ever think anything about them....what do i do?????
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