Things are better. I guess all i needed was a trip to see my family, They always open my eyes and somehow rejuvenate me..... I talked to my dad which was weird. It made me realize that i can't help but love him despite his wrong doings.
sahnnon's first night at work was last night. I didnt sleep much not that i expected to. I did Get to talk to Gena Moon. Shannon knows that there is an attraction there so certainly she is going to be insecure about the situation.. well an attraction on Gena's part.... I could not bare myself to ... ewww.. However, she does have a wonderful personality and i have a good time around her... She is a good person. I want for shannon to know that i would never do anything to jeopordize our relationship but it seems like there isn't a person left on this earth that trust me.....: ( I will live... I only have two more nights..until i get to sleep with her again.. I'm exited.. i wish she knew how much i miss her when she isn't in my arms. I wish i could let her feel what i feel