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absence make the heart frow fonder
pardon my absense, reader.That is, if any of u read my entries...been busy.been a walking zombie.been dead.i donoe.feel shitty.have parade of problems lined up with me.marching along as i live by my day.
problem #1
my best friend of 11 years disappeared.i hate silence treatment.i rather we talk it out and resolve it.ignoring it will make matter worse especially if ders a 3rd party who is feeling evilish.not dat i blame him for being evil after what happened.i wont blame him..but blaming me for wat made him today?i have no part in it.watever i said to him to he had to take it against me.all i did was to set things stret.and he manipulate it to make it big.like hello!!!i didnt even say it with anger although i was angry.i said to u politely coz i respected u.u feel satisfaction huh?u want to ruin her life not me.she ditches u.not me!i did warned you of her.u didnt listen to me.she doesnt love u anymore.it hurts her to continue pretending and she doesnt wanna hurt u.i told u to leave her.YOU DIDNT WANNA LISTEN TO ME!and now u blamed me for all d things i adviced u upon?i told u of my opinions.when u quarelled wt her, u came to me crying.i consoled you.i helped u.der are many times i hinted to you dat is of no use to continue..u are stubborn and so is she.its your both freakin problem.why get me involve!and to d both of you, pls dun b kiddish. slammin each other thru blogging wont get u far. to HIM, aldoe u didnt include my name, i guess other ppl would have guess who you are talking abt. ppl are not dumb.why do you have to portray ur own fucking problem online, on your blog.knowin millions of passer-by can read it.seeking sympathy?between you and me is money.i just owe you 30 freakin dollars~i aint got cash and its d truth!i already paid you 100 and im dead broke and u still pressing me fer money?and u claimed u are broke after u bought xbox,ps2 and all d games!and after u sold your bike off and you are still broke?what?u claimed u need d money urgently fer ur mum??den sell of ur xbox,ps2,dreamcast and ur psone.freak!and for HER, why are u rejecting my calls?do u thk i did wrong?i dont advertise my problem dat involve ppl who knows abt who i'm talking abt online.furthermore, i never talked bad abt u online.i never bitched abt u online.i never tell others of ur wrongdoings online.so u feel great after letting others knowledge of my past?so ur weapon is my past?ur holding on to it till d day dat i reali pissed u off den u gonna shoot it?u gonna tell my boifren?when did i ever said a single thing to ur boifren?u did far worst but i didnt say it online.i dont even describe it online.im so pissed off dat i had let it off.dont feel like talking but i jez have to let it out.my boifren couldnt care less abt it coz he doesnt thk its important how others thk of u.but to me, i dont allow others to judge me simply by someone who post his entries and says things abt me aldoe my name was omitted.now i reali wonder if we were being hypocritical towards each other fer d past 11 yrs...dats wat she claimed...best friends, are we?i donoe how to clear things up but i none want to claim d blame. all push it to me!
come here, lemme shove my tumblers up ur scrappy asses.bah!
dats my #1 prob.now i get all peeved writing abt my 1st prob. i dun feel like going on to my next.shall stop here!
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