This week has been quite hectic.. Tonight was the homecoming parade/game.. I went to the parade with Christa. Christa's so fucking amazing.. she's really great. [she broke up w/ her bf tonight and started to cry, it made me want to cry] I love you Christa! Then, Rachel showed up high with Jada. I tried to tell her I was disappointed but she brought up my past and I didn't want to get into it with her. So, she gets pissed and walks off.. I hear she's looking for me. I find her.. she talks to me for a second and walks off. i spent 15 minutes just trying to find her..Then I find her later and she's kissing this nasty guy.. which she wont remember. I walk her out, sit with her. My ride shows. I get into the car, making sure she's walking to get picked up. I get back out of my car and make sure she makes it from one curb to the other. kiss her on the cheek goodnight. Go back to my car, get in.. and waited for her ride to show. Then got home and called her.. just to make sure she was "okay.." All this, she will not remember..but at least I remember, so that I can fill her in this weekend.. Tomorrow is Tuckers house.. I dont know who's taking me yet..then sunday is sleep and checking up on rachel.. What am I supposed to do with this mess? I love my friends but often times their problems weigh me down.. I don't know what to do anymore..