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Fasting
Hey everyone, it's one oclock, and nothing but 5 crackers so far. When fasting it's good to eat in the morning to wake up you metabloism. Also, I needed to eat a little to take my vitamin. When I eat it on a empty stomach I get queasy. i HATE THAT FEELING. I keep telling myself nothing feels as good as being thin does. I really have more weight to loose, and since I was a pig this weekend, I need to not eat today. i figure if I do this for two days, and drink a lot of water, I will loose a pound of fat. (about 3,000 calories burned plus a workout.) I know I can push myself. I want to be perfect. I have so much homework to do, plato, and Lit research. Fuck that sucks. I really hate that class. Anyway, I told Jimmy I wasn't feeling good and that's why I am not eating. I am so lucky to have a boyfriend that supports this. He knows its not the healthiest thing, but I cry and cry and cry when I don't diet, and he see's I am absolutley miserable with the way I look. He's really skinny, just a tall, thin lanky guy, and I hate the fact I am fatter, then him. His sister is pro ana, and tops out at a size 0. She's gorgeous, and that's what I want to be like. She is shorter then me, but with a little help, I should be able to get down to a size 4 or so. Now I am about an 8. My friend Judy got sooo fat. I really looked at he in class today, and a huge Large T shirt was tight on her. Gross. I started laughing out loud because I pictured he in the little pink bikini I want so bad. EWWW And she wonders why no guys ever like her. She needs Ana desperatly.
It's such a beautiful day out. 65 degrees. I love it. The weather beforehand has been in the 20's so I am so grateful for this amazing weather. It makes me so happy to hear the birds, and to know someday I will be light enough to fly along next to them.
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