| Current mood: |  guilty |
| Current music: | hilary duff/come clean |
love above all, can never be replaced......through it, all is conquered
It seems like everyone hates me!! i feel like a horrible person. One of my best frends is madd at me..it was all a big misunderstanding and now i think he hates me. Oh yea and i got kalled a bitch today too! i wont mention any names but if this guy is so "in love" with me ...he'd know that thats not the greatest way to win a gurls heart. ANyways, im not gonna kall him...why should i? hes stupid. ive kissed ass to too many people and im not gonna do it no more. But i guess i should kall my frend>our frendship is worth kissing ass. literally> ahh j/k lol . Today i went to take track piktures. it was funny kus me and iris were thinking we were gonna have a reall photographer and all and then coach busts out with his disposable camera and im like > omg! lol it was funny ....and retarded. We didnt runn at practice today so it wasnt so bad. Things havent been so great in the "boi" dept. ......is once a cheater always a cheater? Is that how it works? he kalled me, said he still liked me and says hes changed. I dunno, sometimes i believe it but then i think....how many times have i heard this before? hes capable of hurting me again ...that is a fact...anyone can hurt me, but what if he really does kare this time? I dont really know if i like him , but theres been something there for about 2 years now and it hasnt gone away. I kant say exactly what it is .....or why i keep wanting him to be true. I wish hed never said he liked me... i wish i didnt want to go back to him... I promised myself so many nights that id never go back to him and i did good for a while , but now my past is coming back to haunt me i guess. It sucks! he says soo many sweet things and acts like the greatest guy in the world...but then i think ...this is how he was when he cheated on me too. and i kant except him back kus if i do , ill be lying to myself and to him . Cause maybe what i want isnt him....maybe what i want is for someone to treat me the way he did. OR maybe i just want him . lol . haha
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