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I guess thats the word to use. 4 years. It really is pretty pathetic if you think about it...I keep remembering stories that people have told me about their first loves and their relationships that lasted 4 or 5 years before they broke up. I dont understand how I could have thought of myself as so invincible and to think that it would never happen to me. silly girl, I guess. I dont really think its about being pathetic, actually. Its funny, sometimes, but I guess it's mostly just sad. 4 years of bonding and making life-long plans together (please, try not to laugh) and then just have it all unravel in a short amount of time. It's also sad to realize of how blinded I was to have made such plans at a really young age and have my heart set on them....I guess now I understand that it really is unrealistic to think that you can be with your "first love" for a lifetime with no breaks or pauses in the relationship. Although, after four years (regardless of age), long-term plans just sort of happen I guess. At least that's what I've noticed in both my situation along with others. I don't understand. If you love someone, that should be enough...too bad that's not really how it works. We say we'll be friends, and that things might work out, but how can we be so sure? Realistically, you have to understand that no matter how long a break is, or how many promises, its not going to be how it was. And thats what I want...how it was. Obviously this is true from previous breaks. I think I am just noticing that this relationship is in cycles and I really see no way out of it. However, silly girls always have hope.... that's because they don't learn (at least not all the way). I guess this is the end of my little random tangent. my mind is in circles so I suppose im not making any sense. Post a comment in response: |
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