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Home Sweet Home
Well, we are moved, and starting to get accustomed to our new digs. So much more than a humble abode, I step inside feeling a sense of luxury like I've never known surround me.
Voices still echo against empty walls that I hope to carefully display artwork that can only turn a house into a home expressing the individual's tastes. The semi-temperary window coverings my new mother-in-law thoughtfully helped me choose and hang are helping aid in a confortable and more private feel. We no longer have to worry that we'll be arrested for exposing ourselves when we want to drift around in the nude.
I have high hopes for our new surroundings, dreams are forming within me for a new start, a new approach to life. Although it's difficult at best to let go of the past, sometimes we have no choice and must hope that those no longer with us would celebrate our new found treasure with us if they could. I will continue, probably for the rest of my life, with this struggle to enjoy parts of my life while my greatest joy is now missing, but now I realize that struggle and impossibility are not one in the same.
My father a few months ago mentioned to Danny that I don't adjust well to change. At the time, I didn't recognize that in myself, but since then I've began to realize he was very right. In my history of life change is usually brought about by misfortune or disaster of some sort. I think I am simply not used to change coinciding with only good, positive choices. This home however, was pure, it was our decision and one we are thrilled to make. It's less money than we were paying, brand new, beautiful, huge, and in a smaller community. Only good stuff can be said, and I'm adjusting very pleasantly. No fears, no worries, no hardships or tears to join me in this change and I like that a lot!
Danny has said he'd like to furnish one room completely at a time. That will be hard for a scattered mind like myself, but I think I'm going to try to enjoy the focus of doing each room start to finish. First up is the family room, we are sorely in need of a new couch/table ensemble, along with a nice rug to center it all with. We will probably keep the entertainment center for awhile though since it blends nearly perfectly with the adjoining kitchen's cupboards. We just need to devise a way to conceal the missing back panels that were stupidly punched out of a few of the shelves (not by us!), it is afterall just about the perfect size for the room and has a nice, almost romantic lighted display.
We should be getting a $5k bonus at the end of the month, a well deserved one I might add. We've been working horrid hours for many weeks now. I suppose it is worth it, but until the money is actually in hand it doesn't always feel like that.
So the plan is to use that money to get rid of the black leather sofa and chair that's cushions are breaking down and just doesn't fit in with things at all anymore. I will miss it a little, I've never had leather furniture before (always went for more of a country/coastal look before) and there were many amazing first memories with Danny created on that perch. However since then there have been many hard and serious conversations and pains shared between us on those same seats and it will undoubtedly feel refreshing to not rest upon them again.
I believe we technically had internet service on Thursday but were just too tired and got home way too late both Thurday and Friday to try to unpack and set up the office. So today, mission accomplished. I'm ok with this being the majority of unpacking that we get done for the whole weekend. I need to rest my body and spirit right now. I'm feeling my age, and with a birthday upcoming as a not-so-gentle reminder, I'm just not as young as I used to be (wish I was). My body is sore, muscles are stiff and achy, bruises are tender, torn fingernails snapped off from boxes too heavy, feet swollen and throbbing from the unfamiliar new but very hard tile floors, back knotted from lifting and being on my feet constantly for weeks. This weekend is dedicated to relaxation and peace.
It's nice to feel the laptop's keys beneath my fingers again...to listen to music saved as I type, to hear Danny's game playing behind me, with the doggies under our feet.
Tomorrow, the one goal...to christen in the new house with some love and passion...starting with the awesome shower! Woohoo!
Yes, I'd say we are settling in nicely.