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*What You See Is Not What You Get*
It is funny how things turn out...I mean your heart tells you something and usually that is how it should be...People really think I am dumb and I think it is funny bc I am not...I may act it sometimes like my blonde shows through but I have common sense...a lot of it too...my vibes I get from people ARE right...No one will disrespect me and try and tell me how something is when you are so fucking wrong it is funny...I mean I cry from laughing so hard...someone that thinks they can make me feel lower to higher themselves fuck you...I am so far gone you will never see me again...this is the last time I ever go against what my heart says to me...I mean this whole entire relationship was based on me not wanting to be alone...how wrong was that...I mean really I lied to myself and everyone else...that is bad but really it is true...i tired to make it work soooo many freaking times to try and prove a point..why would I ever want to be with someone who does not care about me yet says he does...I am sorry but I have friends that care more for me then a boyfriend...ex...wait...maybe he was never a boyfriend lol...who knows...not I...I have this awesome friend that will swing with me on swings and take me to a zoo or to a farm so I can play with the pigs...that sees ME...not someone who will not call or show up late or not hang out with me or not want to be with me...who will just be a loser...sorry...I mean I do not hate anyone...still dont...but maybe I am disappointed?...who knows...but this time..for the first time...I am happy with everything around me...I do not need someone to make me feel low...when I know how great I really am...i am not stupid...I saw through you...i am typing like I am typing to him..not sure why...but no I see through people...I can see who they really are and I knew from the start but wanted to fix it...it was the idea of liking them...and wanting to be with them...if only I opened my mouth sooner..and bit the bullet and just took being alone for a while...instead of trying to make something work that obviously was not working the 2nd or the 3rd or the 4th or the 5th time!
Just know everytime someone talks about you they laugh...hard
Okee enough of that retarded stuff...life is good and has been for a while actually
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