I just watched my best friend desert me, once again. My ex Amanda and her new bf walked in w/ him sitting right next to me and asked if he could come over to his gf's house with them w/o even mentioning me or acknowledging I was there. Amanda hates me, Steven dislikes me, Jonny ignores me, Desiree uses me for rides, Keiva hates me, I hate her, my dad is mad at me, i'm mad at him for not taking me to a concert and taking Charlie instead, mom's mad about her bday and how I forgot. Olenka is disgusted that I'm in love with her because she doesn't believe me and thinks it's not real. Why am I here? Today is a good day to die, to quote a famous movie. I hate this world. I want to leave. When you have no friends, no support, it makes life unbearable. I know that if I don't take my life today that I will some other time, later. There's no reason to be here. We are as necessary as ants. I hate this life.