|Current mood:|| depressed|
I am ready to go home
I am so ready to go home. I dont want to be here anymore. I thought that this was home, but came to realization that home is where the heart is, and that is ohio! I mean for once in about 2 months i am ready to go back. Plus as valentines day rolls around i realize that i am just going to be single for the rest of my life. I hate relationships, they ruin me. And the last one that i was in completly has me all fucked up. I dont even want to be gay anymore. I think that i am going to check all my girlish ways at the door and just go straight. Or at least i can try, trying never hurt anyone, right? Anywho. All i am is just a whiny complaining bitch, that is just a moocher. I took off my nails a few minutes ago, and now i am going to take all my clothes that are "girly" and just chuck them. Start off with just new guys clothes. I am going into the air force and just get on with my new manly life. I am so fucked up in the head. Being gay is not right. Its not. The one wish that i have, is to just be cured from this gawd awful disease that i have. Oh yea, to make my move to ohio a little easier i am just going to shelter myself away from everyone and just go. Not talk to anyone, not let anyone know where i am. anywho, i just used this journal because livejournal is fucked up right now and i had to get some shit off my mond.