I have a new love. His name is Ben and yes, he is a junior. But omg he was sitting with Liz, Jamie F., Jack, Leah and myself (because he is like BEST friends with Jack), and omg he was talking to us about how he was really depressed and shit and suicidal over this past year, and he just started crying. Like he totally tried to hold it in, but he couldn't, and oh my fuckign god it was sooo adorable!!!! But anyway I am sick, my arms totally hurt and I have no clue why. Oh oh oh and not to mention the fact that I GAINED two pounds over this past weekend.....whoa! But whats also bad is I did it again after I said i wouldn't...i cut. My ankle this time, but still, i was so ashamed. Anyway i really do no want to go to school tomorrow, but I have to cause I meet with Laura tomorrow and she'll be pissed if I miss school again!