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| Current music: | plain white t's - hey there delilah |
start of something new
ok so school's starting again. it's a bittersweet symphony. i can't say i'm entirely thrilled that it's all starting over again and the whole idea of being a slave to EyE doesn't sit too well with me. it's disgusting being forced to succumb to dodgy bureaucracy, and it's even less pleasant being at the mercy of micromanagers who talk as if they'd be better off doing everything by themselves. having EyE in my life certainly dampens the essence of being in school. i only wish i had known better earlier on to have cut out of the elections while i had the chance. i don't like the idea of being part of a community that stands for nothing more than perfectionistic outcomes at all costs. a co-curricular activity has certainly morphed into a full-time obligation. just lighten up guys. geezus. why must everything be so by-the-book and hierarchical. you are all turning your backs on the vision you championed that got you your posts. flat hierarchy, no such thing as top-down approach. fuck off man. have a good look at the way you're running the show and repeat that phrase looking me straight in the eye without flinching, i dare you. you're missing the point of being part of a student organization. we're all in it to learn and to have fun. clearly the fun factor is sorely amiss.
going back to school instills some form of dread in my heart. the thought of having to make small talk to acquaintances all day long sends shivers down my spine. it is a place where not smiling labels you a bad-mannered recluse with attitude problem. a place where you have to fight tooth and nail for that coveted A+ and a reputation of being a good and dependable group mate. it is a place that sadly resembles the worst edition of corporate life. the part where you're still struggling to get out of the rat race. still reeling from the after-effects of being in JC? then get ready for SMU cos it's gonna throw curveballs at you from every angle until you're down on your knees and begging to be let out. our terms may be shorter than the other 2 unis, but they're at least 10 times more intense. woe to those who aren't prepared to rough it out. you need balls of steel to be in that place. and a sturdy mind to remain sane while you're there.
alot of analogies using balls, but before i end off, there is a sweet side to this bittersweet symphony. i only hope that friendships and knowledge are given a chance to strengthen over the course of this term. i only hope that my faith will be enough to take me through the next 15 weeks. that i will not back down in the face of adversity and that those who truly matter will be there for me always.
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