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letter to me
so this is where Amy Lee's Hello comes in with the best way of putting the purpose of this entry: "hello, i am your mind, giving you someone to talk to. hello?" this is where i get lost in my thoughts then grope for a way out. i figured, i've given many people advice on how to deal with their problems. why can't i try giving myself some advice too? so anyway, i've placed myself in a right kafuffle. gearing my mind to think that he might be the closest i've got to the one. and because it is hard to find (rarity) and he's one hell of an ice king (exclusivity), basically Robert Cialdini has helped me find a couple of reasons why there is some kind of a "draw". at the moment, my mind is finding it a tad challenging to change its programming. to the extent that when i'm around him, i get all muddle-headed.
angie darling, i know what you're going through. your mind's filled up, made up, and because you are one stubborn biatch, you cling on to want you think you want. i'm telling you now hun, to get one very simple thing straight. you guys are barely friends. please heed wayne's saying: "the easiest way to lose something is to want it too much." and wake up to reality. don't ruin a potentially wonderful friendship just because of a warped pre-conceived notion that doing it nick's way will necessarily get you what you want. don't forget: nick happens to be a sharp shooter. much sharper than you at least. oh, and one more thing, nick's a guy. he gets it easier when it comes to first moves.
angie darling, you've got to stop being so hard on yourself. what happened today is not and definitely will not be the last time you get to show him who you really are. don't resign yourself to failure even before anything has begun. you're not being fair to yourself, and neither are you being fair to him. give it a rest, dammit. quit being so hung up on the mistakes, and move on. the way you're feeling now, it can only get better.
angie darling, if he's going to be such a judgmental son of a bitch, then that's his problem, you know? it's not your perogative to portray the best side of yourself to people 100% of the time. so what if he happens to not think too highly of you? he's still friends with so-called "lesser beings" isn't he? geez girl, i seriously don't get why you're so hung up over those minor dumb comments you made. i mean, give it a rest!!! stop being such a whiner!!! gawd. just be yourself, and the rest will fall into place naturally.
angie darling, you are a good girl, and anybody would be a fool not to see that. where is your self-love and your self-respect?? and you call yourself an independent and strong-minded individual. all you gotta do is love yourself, respect yourself, and keep that sense of belief in your heart going strong. you've got what it takes, and you of all people shouldn't be worried about such trivial things as what acquaintances think of you.
yes, angie, you guessed right, you need some time away from him to settle down, get it right, and get ready for the new school year. you deserve better than such treatment. you shouldn't always be the one getting the shorter end of the stick. you ought to go out there and see the world. be who you were meant to be and be loved how you were meant to.
love,
your logical thoughts.
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